have forgotten to relax

speed... that's the essence in whatever i do... writing, eating, watching the TV... how can speed come in the latter? simple... when something un-happening happens (that which does not excite my mind = unhappening) on TV, i tend to surf...
i eat very fast... i recall when i was a child, or even later in college or university, i used to take aeons to chew the food and swallow it, i literally used to enjoy eating... now it has reversed... i cannot eat slow, just cannot...it is as if, i have to somehow finish the food and head off to fly an aircraft... before every meal, i try to tell myself that this meal will be slow... but by the time i have sat and started eating, i just speed...
similarly when i start writing, i just carry on non-stop...it is as if the keyboard would melt in a while... when an idea pops up, i just have to put it down...
i just have forgotten how to go slow... i wonder where am i headed this way?